Alchemical Paths of the Dark Feminine
Shadow alchemy, embodied eros, and the fertile void of transformation, for women who refuse to live half‑lit.
A Word To The Women Who Arrive Here
You’ve tried every healing tactic, only to find the work fades when life shifts again. You know there is more behind the next “breakthrough,” but the old containers can’t hold your depth.
I offer something different: practices that live in your bones, a circle that holds your descent, and weekly transmissions that call you back when you drift. Here, shadow is transformed into fuel, desire is taught to move with wisdom, and the dark womb becomes a well you draw from again and again. If you’re ready to stop auditioning tools and start inhabiting real change, keep reading. Worship to Will and Via Rubra await.
Three Ways to Walk the Path
Forge Your Power in the Dark Womb
WORSHIP TO WILL
Strip away inherited identities and egoic noise in this six-week private initiation across six archetypal gates of the Tree of Life. Through ritual, remembrance, and deep embodiment, you’ll birth the living altar of your True Will.
VIA RUBRA
Via Rubra is my monthly chamber for women who walk with depth. I share what I never found elsewhere: Rose Lectures, Qabalistic teachings, energetic discernment, and private transmissions. Join us inside for $37/month.
THE SEVEN VEILS
Transmute sensual energy into magnetic self-expression and wild creative power in this seven-week ceremonial striptease for the erotic artist, where ritual ignites creative mastery, and pleasure shapes the work.
“Devotion is the hidden crucible where identity dissolves and authentic power condenses.”
Christina Zayas, Founder of Cultesh
I am Christina Zayas, Founder of Cultesh, Shadow Alchemist, Dark Feminine Initiatrix, and architect of rituals that pull the deepest threads of your being into clean, undeniable form. My work is a descent into the hidden chambers of the self: shadow alchemy, erotic intelligence, and mythic ritual woven into one living practice.
In these spaces, you will learn to inhabit your body as the oracle, let buried stories speak, and then reshape them, and move through the day with the unmistakable charge of someone who trusts her own fire.
Expect breath that opens locked corridors, movement that recalls instinct, and rites that anchor newfound clarity in the mundane hours. This is devotion with teeth, initiation that leaves a mark, craft for women who refuse to edit their power to fit polite rooms. If your bones hum at the thought of stepping beyond familiar edges, follow Via Rubra.
About Christina Zayas,
Founder of Cultesh
THE CULTESH ORDER
The Cultesh Order unveils four sacred gateways: shadow, eros, void practice, and ritual devotion. These gateways form the living architecture of every rite, teaching, and transmission, weaving their energies into a single path of profound transformation.
Step into the underworld of your own psyche, where the edges of everyday comfort dissolve, and raw truths wait to be reclaimed. Guided shadow rituals draw out the parts you’ve buried: fear, regret, old wounds—and forge them into fuel for your emergence. Each encounter deepens your self-trust and clears the fog around your purpose, leaving you with a fierce clarity about who you are and where you’re headed.
INITIATORY DESCENT
Feel your sexual energy as a living current coursing through every cell. Through precise breathwork, intentional movement, and simple ritual, that current is channeled into creativity, focus, and unshakable confidence. What starts as personal practice becomes a magnetic force in your life. You’ll experience new levels of vitality, sharper intuition, and a presence that commands the room without a word.
EROTIC CURRENT
Enter the fertile silence, where intuition and insight take shape. With sensory withdrawal—blindfolded breathwork anchored in gentle cues—you cultivate ease with the unknown. In those quiet depths, subconscious patterns reveal themselves, emotional blocks soften, and inspiration surfaces unbidden. It’s a practice of listening so profound that your next breakthrough arrives before you ask the question.
VOID PRACTICE
Transformation lives in the rhythm you keep. Monthly rites mark your progress, reflective prompts anchor each revelation, and group transmissions weave your journey into a living tapestry. This framework turns fleeting experiences into embodied change, wrapping your descent, embodiment, and communion into daily life until the new ways of being become second nature.
DEVOTIONAL STRUCTURE
INITIATES’ PRAISE
I signed up for the initiation because I was tired of "self‑help" that died out in weeks. But Worship to Will was nothing like that! Each week was a practice I still carry with me. My son even noticed something different about me, and I feel more patient with him. I also noticed I now guide my classroom with serenity. I was so burned out before! The final week really brought me home to myself. This work is the real alchemy of life.
Tania Cervantes
I'm a painter, and I always relied on creativity to guide me until I hit a block last year that I couldn't break through on my own. Being in Worship to Will taught me to approach that negative inner voice through somatics instead of trying to convince myself out of that head space. After the second week, I learned to sit with my doubts in deep meditation. Now, I trust myself again.
Rafaela F.
The Worship to Will initiation led me to dive deeper into how I perceive my own power and authenticity. This six‑week path motivated me to strip away every false identity and to live in alignment with my True Will. We all carry incredible gifts waiting to be revealed, but that core authority is at our center. How we show up in each moment shapes our reality and our influence in the world. If you’re ready to leave surface fixes behind and embody your own power, then Worship to Will is for you.
Nadia Marie
Christina has been a mentor in guiding me back to understanding my worth. I was curious about her programs because self-worship and truly loving yourself as a woman was so highlighted in what she offered. In the beginning, we both interviewed each other and after that, I knew this was a woman that could assist me in a few things that are holding me back in my life.
The support, tips, challenges, one-on-one calls, and guidance were so beneficial. Craving so much growth and wanting to overcome internal challenges can sometimes be difficult on your own. She was that component I needed to push me along and guide me. Forever learning and forever growing. She was an amazing woman to help me along this journey in life.
Jana McDevitt
I reached out to Christina because I saw what she was doing on social media. I was attracted to her dedication and commitment to healing herself while unavoiding the dark sides of her past. I was intrigued. I've worked with therapists in the past, and while they helped me look back to discover what had such a hold on me, they instead tried techniques on me to overcome and almost forget who that part of me was.
My work with Christina was the complete polar opposite. We did look back, but it wasn't to forget; it was to embrace those "shadows," those parts of me, patterns that just seemed to repeat themselves over and over again. I learned how to accept all parts of me, good and bad, and use those parts to create an incredibly gorgeous life of self-acceptance and love.
Shauna Tuso
